At 54, i find noticeable changes in my body that take some adjusting to. for example, last year as part of my physical, i asked my physician to check my hearing and sure enough, there were a couple of deficits. the referral card still sits on my bedside.
i had shoulder surgery ages ago - 3 1/2 months ago, and i still have pain. not just pain, but pain strong enough to require pain medication. and frequent ice. i have no doubt that had i had this surgery 20 years ago, the pain would be all gone and the arm/shoulder at full function. i know, patience......
i don't grasp things in a split second. very, very quickly, but a noticeable hesitation before the light bulb goes off. noticeable to me, at least. seems like it used to be different.
while i notice all the above, i feel OK with the changes, because of the other ones. i feel wise at times. i watch someone manifest my own hallmark impatience, and i know it, whatever "it", takes time. i bring a multitude of experiences at my disposal from which to relate, to learn, to connect.
i've seen very, very difficult examples of aging and i know it is not for sissies. but right now, i'm just old enough to know more. not necessarily to know better, but to know more. and that's a good place for now. and just maybe i'll act on that referral to a hearing specialist.
lovely observations; thank you for these gracious words. and do see that hearing specialist. xo
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