there's not a much odder feeling than being a motherless daughter on mother's day. many women in this position are mothers themselves, so it's still a very meaningful day. i make jokes about it, but being the human mother to animals just doesn't conjure up the same emotions. and this year is just a touch more uncomfortable because of my father's health, and the possibility that he won't be around for father's day.
it's a day calling out for me to somehow create...something. to do something with the isolation that kind of conquers it. right now, today, i don't have a clue what that would look like. i think i'm doing good by keeping in touch with people, acknowledging the mothers among my friends, calling my mothering aunt to wish her a good day....
my partner is in the same emotional place and she is doing things similar to me, and every now and then we pull ourselves out of our separate spaces and meet in the middle. later we'll spend the evening together and that will be good.
motherless daughter who are also not mothers.......a hard category for day like today.